Thursday, February 26, 2009
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Down-South
It's not my first driving trip down-south but it still never stop to amazed my relatives....
Just got back from driving and spending 2 days 1 night in Johor Bahru for my 3rd Uncle's wedding luncheon. On Friday, had this thought that if I could escape from going on this trip, I would very much be delighted about it. But then, I cannot just let my dad drive all the way there... then, there is the "obligations" to consider. Despite with my uncomfortable mood, I just go...
There was an emergency plan that my sister's family may not be able to go Singapore after the wedding luncheon so, we actually standby the hotel enquiries. Upon hearing that, I was so delighted on Thursday because that's the opportunity that my parents & I would be able to check-into a hotel too instead of cramming into my 1st Aunt's place in Taman Perling. Anyway, the news on Friday was, my sister was able to make it after all as my brother-in-law's passport finally got collected out. So... back to putting up at my Aunt's place.
Along this trip, my 3rd & 4th Aunt followed our car and my 3rd Aunt wanted to test out her newly purchased GPRS device. So, every time I drove to the limit of 105km/hour, the voice will prompt, "Please slow down" but if I drove above 110km/hour, it's all silence even if I drove to the speed of 130km/hour, it's all silence. *Chuckled*
The wedding luncheon was a small, simple and normal occassion but the food was so big portion that most of it ended being "doggy-packed" and for those of us who had to put up at my Aunt's place, it became our dinner on Saturday as well.
Despite that on Saturday, I had some complains from my granny and who else I have no idea for using the bathroom too long, I just make a remark to my mom, "If they need to use it, why can't they knock since I'm just changing & getting my make-up done?" Nowdays, I have no idea whether was it I'm getting older & super-sensitive that I'm getting so sick of my granny's attitude & comments towards me or she is just being old and she had too many requirements that I had to meet but all her other grandchildren doesn't seem needed to do so. It's always my sister and myself that get this kind of "comments"... Shucks! I really don't get it... *shake head shake head*
For this trip, I had opened the eyes of many of my relatives that "YES! I'm capable to DRIVE a CAMRY which is a huge car and driving 650++km of distance within 36 hours!!"
Well, they still never stop being amazed when they found out that I drove the whole trip to Johor from Klang when I reached my Aunt's place in Taman Perling & I only made 2 toilet-stops to clean up my "monthly-blood-charity" and to stretch my legs.
For the retuning trip, another remarked popped out by my "to-be-cousin-bro-in-law" which my mom told me later in the car, "HUH? SHE is driving back?" and I just chuckled a bit to my mom, "Why not? It's not my first time... besides, who said a petite lady like me cannot drive?" and I think if my sister would be the one driving also, probably the same remark will be given. But of course, she is more fortunate than me, she is happily married and she don't have to get all this remarks heard thru her ears.
Not that I mind the way my relatives' complaint, comment or remarked... but, I always find them pretty insulting if it's way-too-much within a few hours. But, I'm proud and I MUST do this in favour of my parents bringing me up and I had to chauffeur them around especially for long-distance like this. So, that comforts me... and made me proud to be able to do this for my parents. For this trip, amazingly, I had gained 2 of my aunt's trust that... "Faith is good at manuvering her Camry." I'm very sure one of my aunt's compliment meant alot to me because she is not a lady that easily get satisfied. Not that I want to find favour in her mind & heart, but at least, there is a level of acceptance now.
There was an emergency plan that my sister's family may not be able to go Singapore after the wedding luncheon so, we actually standby the hotel enquiries. Upon hearing that, I was so delighted on Thursday because that's the opportunity that my parents & I would be able to check-into a hotel too instead of cramming into my 1st Aunt's place in Taman Perling. Anyway, the news on Friday was, my sister was able to make it after all as my brother-in-law's passport finally got collected out. So... back to putting up at my Aunt's place.
Along this trip, my 3rd & 4th Aunt followed our car and my 3rd Aunt wanted to test out her newly purchased GPRS device. So, every time I drove to the limit of 105km/hour, the voice will prompt, "Please slow down" but if I drove above 110km/hour, it's all silence even if I drove to the speed of 130km/hour, it's all silence. *Chuckled*
The wedding luncheon was a small, simple and normal occassion but the food was so big portion that most of it ended being "doggy-packed" and for those of us who had to put up at my Aunt's place, it became our dinner on Saturday as well.Despite that on Saturday, I had some complains from my granny and who else I have no idea for using the bathroom too long, I just make a remark to my mom, "If they need to use it, why can't they knock since I'm just changing & getting my make-up done?" Nowdays, I have no idea whether was it I'm getting older & super-sensitive that I'm getting so sick of my granny's attitude & comments towards me or she is just being old and she had too many requirements that I had to meet but all her other grandchildren doesn't seem needed to do so. It's always my sister and myself that get this kind of "comments"... Shucks! I really don't get it... *shake head shake head*
For this trip, I had opened the eyes of many of my relatives that "YES! I'm capable to DRIVE a CAMRY which is a huge car and driving 650++km of distance within 36 hours!!"
Well, they still never stop being amazed when they found out that I drove the whole trip to Johor from Klang when I reached my Aunt's place in Taman Perling & I only made 2 toilet-stops to clean up my "monthly-blood-charity" and to stretch my legs.
For the retuning trip, another remarked popped out by my "to-be-cousin-bro-in-law" which my mom told me later in the car, "HUH? SHE is driving back?" and I just chuckled a bit to my mom, "Why not? It's not my first time... besides, who said a petite lady like me cannot drive?" and I think if my sister would be the one driving also, probably the same remark will be given. But of course, she is more fortunate than me, she is happily married and she don't have to get all this remarks heard thru her ears.
Not that I mind the way my relatives' complaint, comment or remarked... but, I always find them pretty insulting if it's way-too-much within a few hours. But, I'm proud and I MUST do this in favour of my parents bringing me up and I had to chauffeur them around especially for long-distance like this. So, that comforts me... and made me proud to be able to do this for my parents. For this trip, amazingly, I had gained 2 of my aunt's trust that... "Faith is good at manuvering her Camry." I'm very sure one of my aunt's compliment meant alot to me because she is not a lady that easily get satisfied. Not that I want to find favour in her mind & heart, but at least, there is a level of acceptance now.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
My Shopping Syndrome
Yesterday, Jasmine, Lee Hoon & myself went out for lunch as it was rather a stressful day for Jasmine and she wanted to get-out-of-the-office. Once a while, I will feel the same way too... Taking some "fresh air" away from eating within the office is definitely a breather.
I suggested Tesco SA since I would prefer to eat my lunch in an air-conditional place since it's very sunny outside. While waiting for my food after our orders, I excused myself to go get myself a tube, since I decided to wear the dress this weekend for my uncle's wedding, I think it's better to be less obscene and to go with a tube inside just in case the elderly-folks are not too happy with the-sight.
Yes, I come from a strings of very-sincerely-conservative family backgrounds starting from my Grandma being the Queen now of the Lee family and then followed by an aunt who probably comment a little here and there. Last but not least, my dad will probably has some thoughts of his own but he will keep that in his heart or just share it with my mom. But, eventually, the "secret thought" will reach me... Hehehe... *Grins* I can't belief I just elaborate myself just for a "tube".
Anyway, while searching... I came across a green-based with pink-roses design dress and I got it for Elisa. Was looking for something that I could get for Kristen too but unfortunately, the sizes are not suitable. I zoomed back quickly to the "mamak" and my food just arrived steaming-hot when I hit my ass on the chair. Talked about "timing" *chuckled*
After lunch, two of them splitted with me as they need to get food while I had to continue my hunt for the right tube. And after getting them, I strolled back to where I needed to wait for them. And while waiting, saw a stall selling lots of bags and "ta-da", there are saw the bag that I wanted to get for my KK trip.
As usual, my shopping-syndrome is I need to ask opinions before I decided to buy something that will cost me more than RM20 or something related to fashion (eg. shoes, dress, pants, make-up). I hardly buy bags and since I needed one for my KK trip, I had already set my mind to hunt for a big one since I had my love for the design on a drama-tv series quite a while back. This one happened to be the exact same one that Tess; a colleague of mine bring to office sometimes; which happened to be the one I was looking for... The sales-girl offered me for Rm38 after a 10% discount. I tried to bargain for lower but she said she can't and it's the last piece.
But, I didn't get it yesterday instead I told Jing Jing about it and she actually requested Tess to bring hers today so she can advised me whether to buy it or not. OMG, everyone is so kind to go thru this "trouble" to make me decide to buy or not-to-buy. *shy shy shy*blushing*
Of course, the thought of the "bag" never left my brains since my eyes have betrayed me. And with Jing Jing futher encouraged me, I really couldn't resist. So, I went back to Tesco after work today and a Chinese lady is there. She opened her mouth to offer me RM35 and I tell you, "my brains were smiling". But, I pretended and asked her, if she has a new one. And she go thru the plastic boxes and search them and came up to inform me that, it's the last piece. So, I bargained further with the story that, "My friend (refering to Tess) bought the MNG brand for the exact same design for only RM49, this no brand, discount lar..." and finally she said, "RM33 best price already." and I said, "okie!"
I suggested Tesco SA since I would prefer to eat my lunch in an air-conditional place since it's very sunny outside. While waiting for my food after our orders, I excused myself to go get myself a tube, since I decided to wear the dress this weekend for my uncle's wedding, I think it's better to be less obscene and to go with a tube inside just in case the elderly-folks are not too happy with the-sight.
Yes, I come from a strings of very-sincerely-conservative family backgrounds starting from my Grandma being the Queen now of the Lee family and then followed by an aunt who probably comment a little here and there. Last but not least, my dad will probably has some thoughts of his own but he will keep that in his heart or just share it with my mom. But, eventually, the "secret thought" will reach me... Hehehe... *Grins* I can't belief I just elaborate myself just for a "tube".
Anyway, while searching... I came across a green-based with pink-roses design dress and I got it for Elisa. Was looking for something that I could get for Kristen too but unfortunately, the sizes are not suitable. I zoomed back quickly to the "mamak" and my food just arrived steaming-hot when I hit my ass on the chair. Talked about "timing" *chuckled*
After lunch, two of them splitted with me as they need to get food while I had to continue my hunt for the right tube. And after getting them, I strolled back to where I needed to wait for them. And while waiting, saw a stall selling lots of bags and "ta-da", there are saw the bag that I wanted to get for my KK trip.
As usual, my shopping-syndrome is I need to ask opinions before I decided to buy something that will cost me more than RM20 or something related to fashion (eg. shoes, dress, pants, make-up). I hardly buy bags and since I needed one for my KK trip, I had already set my mind to hunt for a big one since I had my love for the design on a drama-tv series quite a while back. This one happened to be the exact same one that Tess; a colleague of mine bring to office sometimes; which happened to be the one I was looking for... The sales-girl offered me for Rm38 after a 10% discount. I tried to bargain for lower but she said she can't and it's the last piece.
But, I didn't get it yesterday instead I told Jing Jing about it and she actually requested Tess to bring hers today so she can advised me whether to buy it or not. OMG, everyone is so kind to go thru this "trouble" to make me decide to buy or not-to-buy. *shy shy shy*blushing*
Of course, the thought of the "bag" never left my brains since my eyes have betrayed me. And with Jing Jing futher encouraged me, I really couldn't resist. So, I went back to Tesco after work today and a Chinese lady is there. She opened her mouth to offer me RM35 and I tell you, "my brains were smiling". But, I pretended and asked her, if she has a new one. And she go thru the plastic boxes and search them and came up to inform me that, it's the last piece. So, I bargained further with the story that, "My friend (refering to Tess) bought the MNG brand for the exact same design for only RM49, this no brand, discount lar..." and finally she said, "RM33 best price already." and I said, "okie!"
Well, mom saw me carried a big plastic bag and asked me what I got today. Told her I got myself a big bag so she was curious and then, she took it and have a look and she commented, "Like that only? No design also... Why you buy so big bag for what?" I just shrugged...
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Room Make-Over
Today, my adrenalin is pushing me to make my final decision to "re-arrange" my room's furniture. Had been thinking of doing it since CNY but one side of the brain will shut down the idea by signaling, "nah... it's too tiring... nah... it's too heavy... nah... it's too dusty & dirty."
And another side of the brain will signal, "yea... arrangement is boring already... yea... it will make the room have more empty space... yea... my bed won't be too close to the upgraded 29' tv"
*phew* I'm really tired from all the moving, this time I did a massive move. I even moved the two big cupboards of mine from one end of the room to the other side of the room. I have to remove one by one of the many carton-boxes I have from the cupboard where I stored all my junks from school days and temporarily placed them in my brother's room while I moved the already lighter cupboard. That's a good work-out for my biceps though and not forgetting the knees because I have to climb up a stool to retrieve the boxes.
Planning the right strategy to move which piece of the furniture first, from left to right, from right to left. Every piece is like a cross-puzzled that you can only moved within that square -size of the room and not move out from the door! So, have to push a little to the right, a little front for the bed and then, move the cupboard a little to the left, a little to the back...
Managed to arrange a new-look @ make-over by 9pm and I had to call it an "off". My body is too tired and it's late and I have to work tomorrow... taking a shower this late won't do my bones good either. So, the carton-boxes are left unattended till I next find a free time to sort them out again... clean one by one of the toys I have around my room...
The largest & the 2nd-largest of my soft-toys already gone to a round of laundry at my granny's place and returned and safely tugged in my downstairs store-room. I'm making space for my 2 new members of my soft-toys collection; yet to come... maybe, will be 1 member only... or maybe, none. Might just bring this new-member in my car to work everyday...
Meantime, I'm thinking... should I do a full-spring-clean again like I did in 2004 whereby, I threw away alot of things from school days... and got myself a new set of furniture. Hhhmm.. this round definitely cannot get new furniture but thinking of another glass-shelf for my books & whether to get rid of old-things... wondering... thinking... wondering... thinking...
And another side of the brain will signal, "yea... arrangement is boring already... yea... it will make the room have more empty space... yea... my bed won't be too close to the upgraded 29' tv"
*phew* I'm really tired from all the moving, this time I did a massive move. I even moved the two big cupboards of mine from one end of the room to the other side of the room. I have to remove one by one of the many carton-boxes I have from the cupboard where I stored all my junks from school days and temporarily placed them in my brother's room while I moved the already lighter cupboard. That's a good work-out for my biceps though and not forgetting the knees because I have to climb up a stool to retrieve the boxes.
Planning the right strategy to move which piece of the furniture first, from left to right, from right to left. Every piece is like a cross-puzzled that you can only moved within that square -size of the room and not move out from the door! So, have to push a little to the right, a little front for the bed and then, move the cupboard a little to the left, a little to the back...
Managed to arrange a new-look @ make-over by 9pm and I had to call it an "off". My body is too tired and it's late and I have to work tomorrow... taking a shower this late won't do my bones good either. So, the carton-boxes are left unattended till I next find a free time to sort them out again... clean one by one of the toys I have around my room...
The largest & the 2nd-largest of my soft-toys already gone to a round of laundry at my granny's place and returned and safely tugged in my downstairs store-room. I'm making space for my 2 new members of my soft-toys collection; yet to come... maybe, will be 1 member only... or maybe, none. Might just bring this new-member in my car to work everyday...
Meantime, I'm thinking... should I do a full-spring-clean again like I did in 2004 whereby, I threw away alot of things from school days... and got myself a new set of furniture. Hhhmm.. this round definitely cannot get new furniture but thinking of another glass-shelf for my books & whether to get rid of old-things... wondering... thinking... wondering... thinking...
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Another half of my V-Day
Another half of the day spend outside with Scott; just chilling out, walking around finding for food and just simply wasting time; it's a Saturday! And of course, it's a Valentine's Day too... almost all of the eatery is pack with people even during odd hours.
After lunch at about 4pm, we decided to try the Italian ice-cream; Gelatomio which is boasting of 99% fat-free. Since, it's Valentine's Day, the banana-split+3 scoops of ice cream is on sale for Rm10.80. So, we went around sampling a few flavors and hhmmm... the flavors are rather "continental" and I guessed the fat-free comes from the non-cream ingredient in someways. I just prefer Baskin Robbins more. Seems like we are in some ice-cream feast because last weekend also we indulged in some BR ice-cream!! But, we had it in shake-form and we get to choose whichever combination of 3 flavors we like. Turns out yummie, it tasted good... or maybe, anything with my all-time-favourite; rum & raisins will taste good. Hahaha!!
We got back to Scott's place to watch a comedy movie and by around 8pm, we went for Nasi Bryani and despite the quality has deteriorated, to me it's still alright since I don't eat this too often. But, the bandung drink was definitely not pleasant, I left the drink untouched 3/4 of the full tall glass and only suck on all the ice cubes *grin*
Love the V-card I got when I first opened it earlier with the amazingly surprised coupons inside. *hearts meltz* Can redeem till 9.9.2009...
After lunch at about 4pm, we decided to try the Italian ice-cream; Gelatomio which is boasting of 99% fat-free. Since, it's Valentine's Day, the banana-split+3 scoops of ice cream is on sale for Rm10.80. So, we went around sampling a few flavors and hhmmm... the flavors are rather "continental" and I guessed the fat-free comes from the non-cream ingredient in someways. I just prefer Baskin Robbins more. Seems like we are in some ice-cream feast because last weekend also we indulged in some BR ice-cream!! But, we had it in shake-form and we get to choose whichever combination of 3 flavors we like. Turns out yummie, it tasted good... or maybe, anything with my all-time-favourite; rum & raisins will taste good. Hahaha!!
We got back to Scott's place to watch a comedy movie and by around 8pm, we went for Nasi Bryani and despite the quality has deteriorated, to me it's still alright since I don't eat this too often. But, the bandung drink was definitely not pleasant, I left the drink untouched 3/4 of the full tall glass and only suck on all the ice cubes *grin*
Love the V-card I got when I first opened it earlier with the amazingly surprised coupons inside. *hearts meltz* Can redeem till 9.9.2009...
Elder Adults Relationship
It's supposed to be a nice lovely Satuday since it's Valentine but mine just decided not to. I login into Facebook to check out what is going on around with my friends and as usual, I'll also read up my horoscope...
And yea, unconsciously I will be concern on whatever I read for the day. But unfortunately today I just read & forget. Why that happened, I have no idea... As a result, I was so angry & pissed off with my mom that one thing leads to another.
Mom scolded me for not "hanging out" at the living hall last night when my grandma, aunts and Esther were here. Reason being is that I'm tired from work and why should I bother to hang out with a cousin that just flew in from Melbourne? Is it that a-big-deal?! Even if she is the Queen of England, if I don't have the mood, I couldn't be bother either!! If I don't feel like doing that... why should I? We are not even close and I honestly, have nothing to chat about with her.
Yes, deep inside, I'm still pretty disspointed & upset with her for the fact that she wasn't trying to even assist a bit when I plan to visit Melbourne. Flashing back my memories to a few year back in 2006 when she visited Malaysia and mom asked me to chaperon her a day by bringing her around. Since mom is always concern about the other cousins who hospitalised the relatives from overseas, somehow, she wanna do that too for the reason that I don't fancy to understand. Being an obedient daughter, I had to obey and since the elder adults believe that this will somehow reunite our cousin-relationship since I had not seen her since she was a kiddie. After over 20 years, I still have nothing to say... basically, we just walked from 1 shop to another shop in the mall, buy her lunch & dinner and that's about it that I can recall.
To me, I don't think all this buying lunch/dinner or even buying gifts for the relatives that comes back to visit from overseas should be the thing! If to compare to a simple assistant to make your visit to a foreign country less important... I really don't find there should be a need to bother to "catch up" or I guessed, I'm sturbon to admit that it's equally important. I'm not hoping for any lunch/dinner/gifts pay back to measure up our 'cousin-relationship'... part of me, I do keep the "bad memories" on how one treated me very secured in my heart.
Last night, I had done my duty as a daughter to open the door when I realised that the door-bell was rang more than 6 times and after I peeped thru my parent's room and realised who they are, I had ran down top-speed to open the door. I'm sure if you're a guest that comes to visit and if you see the whole house is in total darkness and nobody answered the door after more than 6 door-bells, can't you at least, make a phonecall with your mobile to check? No.. my aunt didn't bother. And so she said they were almost getting back into the car and leaving the house when I opened it. Now, I was hoping... "Yea... I shouldn't have open that DOOR!" If you have the heart to visit, at least be courtesy about it... Ahhh... I don't understand this elder-adults!
After inviting them in, said my "HI"s to all of them with a smile. And after ensuring, I on the TV and tuned to the channels that suits them, I don't see why I should continue to "hang out" with them since their attention were to the tv program.
This morning, Mom said, "Your grandma asked why Faith is not downstair, what is she doing upstairs when there are people visiting?" and she repeated that 3 times and I was so turned off I raised my voice, "How many times do you have to say that? I don't feel like coming down and that's it..." Of course, I didn't bother to elaborate that it's because of 'certain' human being that makes me not to. No doubt, my evil-side of the brain wants me to behave like that so that the person can feel how unimportant he/she is. But, I'm not the ONE behaving badly for other occasions.
I'm supposed to make brocolli salad for dinner tonight but then, since I was feeling like a mad-goat that is stamping my mini-hooves, I decided not to make the salad anymore because I believe with the "anger-vibes", it will make the food tasteless.
After a mug of coffee, I went up to my room, trying to cheer myself up with cartoons but that didn't work on me today after 15 minutes staring to a TV-box but 'hearing' Mom's voice in the head. So, I took the book I had started a few days ago to read it. After 2 chapters, I decided I had to take a bath despite that the 2 chapters does make me feel a little better by 10%.
In my shower, the thoughts still lingers... and I decided to take a cold shower instead and how I wished I had a bucket of ice to pour down my head or for me soak inside and stop thinking...
Now, I'm blogging my feelings and thoughts, hoping that I'll feel a little better but I really feel so upset that if Mom could understands my feelings, I would probably be happier... Mom even thinking of buying dim sum for "them" later and asking me to fetch her there. She knew that I'm really angry at her and so, she called my grandma to ask my aunt to come pick her up instead. Sigh...
On the other hand, I'm going to find other ways to cheer myself up...
And yea, unconsciously I will be concern on whatever I read for the day. But unfortunately today I just read & forget. Why that happened, I have no idea... As a result, I was so angry & pissed off with my mom that one thing leads to another.
Mom scolded me for not "hanging out" at the living hall last night when my grandma, aunts and Esther were here. Reason being is that I'm tired from work and why should I bother to hang out with a cousin that just flew in from Melbourne? Is it that a-big-deal?! Even if she is the Queen of England, if I don't have the mood, I couldn't be bother either!! If I don't feel like doing that... why should I? We are not even close and I honestly, have nothing to chat about with her.
Yes, deep inside, I'm still pretty disspointed & upset with her for the fact that she wasn't trying to even assist a bit when I plan to visit Melbourne. Flashing back my memories to a few year back in 2006 when she visited Malaysia and mom asked me to chaperon her a day by bringing her around. Since mom is always concern about the other cousins who hospitalised the relatives from overseas, somehow, she wanna do that too for the reason that I don't fancy to understand. Being an obedient daughter, I had to obey and since the elder adults believe that this will somehow reunite our cousin-relationship since I had not seen her since she was a kiddie. After over 20 years, I still have nothing to say... basically, we just walked from 1 shop to another shop in the mall, buy her lunch & dinner and that's about it that I can recall.
To me, I don't think all this buying lunch/dinner or even buying gifts for the relatives that comes back to visit from overseas should be the thing! If to compare to a simple assistant to make your visit to a foreign country less important... I really don't find there should be a need to bother to "catch up" or I guessed, I'm sturbon to admit that it's equally important. I'm not hoping for any lunch/dinner/gifts pay back to measure up our 'cousin-relationship'... part of me, I do keep the "bad memories" on how one treated me very secured in my heart.
Last night, I had done my duty as a daughter to open the door when I realised that the door-bell was rang more than 6 times and after I peeped thru my parent's room and realised who they are, I had ran down top-speed to open the door. I'm sure if you're a guest that comes to visit and if you see the whole house is in total darkness and nobody answered the door after more than 6 door-bells, can't you at least, make a phonecall with your mobile to check? No.. my aunt didn't bother. And so she said they were almost getting back into the car and leaving the house when I opened it. Now, I was hoping... "Yea... I shouldn't have open that DOOR!" If you have the heart to visit, at least be courtesy about it... Ahhh... I don't understand this elder-adults!
After inviting them in, said my "HI"s to all of them with a smile. And after ensuring, I on the TV and tuned to the channels that suits them, I don't see why I should continue to "hang out" with them since their attention were to the tv program.
This morning, Mom said, "Your grandma asked why Faith is not downstair, what is she doing upstairs when there are people visiting?" and she repeated that 3 times and I was so turned off I raised my voice, "How many times do you have to say that? I don't feel like coming down and that's it..." Of course, I didn't bother to elaborate that it's because of 'certain' human being that makes me not to. No doubt, my evil-side of the brain wants me to behave like that so that the person can feel how unimportant he/she is. But, I'm not the ONE behaving badly for other occasions.
I'm supposed to make brocolli salad for dinner tonight but then, since I was feeling like a mad-goat that is stamping my mini-hooves, I decided not to make the salad anymore because I believe with the "anger-vibes", it will make the food tasteless.
After a mug of coffee, I went up to my room, trying to cheer myself up with cartoons but that didn't work on me today after 15 minutes staring to a TV-box but 'hearing' Mom's voice in the head. So, I took the book I had started a few days ago to read it. After 2 chapters, I decided I had to take a bath despite that the 2 chapters does make me feel a little better by 10%.
In my shower, the thoughts still lingers... and I decided to take a cold shower instead and how I wished I had a bucket of ice to pour down my head or for me soak inside and stop thinking...
Now, I'm blogging my feelings and thoughts, hoping that I'll feel a little better but I really feel so upset that if Mom could understands my feelings, I would probably be happier... Mom even thinking of buying dim sum for "them" later and asking me to fetch her there. She knew that I'm really angry at her and so, she called my grandma to ask my aunt to come pick her up instead. Sigh...On the other hand, I'm going to find other ways to cheer myself up...
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
Would You Be There?
Dedicated to the one that had put my heart at aches for the last few days,
Dedicated to the one that makes my brains exhausted today,
Dedicated to the one that reads my blog in order to feel close to me...
If I were blue
Would you be there for me
And whisper in my ears that's okay
Would you stand by me
Let me hold you tight
And say you love me one more time
If I feel good
Would you slow dance with me
And touch my lips with tender love and care
Would you die for me
Would you run with me
And never look back...
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one...
To take my breath away...
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one..
To take my breath away
Would you be there...
If I am away
Would you still think of me
And wish that you could hold me now, (hold me now)
And would you die for me
Would you run with me
All the way
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one
to take my breath away...
Would you be there to save my soul tonight?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be there
To kiss my pain away
would u be there...
Would you be there to love to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one
to take my breath away...
Would you be there to save my soul tonight?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be there
to kiss my pain away
would u be there... for me.
To Hear the Song:-
Would You Be There - Redwan Ali
Dedicated to the one that makes my brains exhausted today,
Dedicated to the one that reads my blog in order to feel close to me...
If I were blue
Would you be there for me
And whisper in my ears that's okay
Would you stand by me
Let me hold you tight
And say you love me one more time
If I feel good
Would you slow dance with me
And touch my lips with tender love and care
Would you die for me
Would you run with me
And never look back...
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one...
To take my breath away...
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one..
To take my breath away
Would you be there...
If I am away
Would you still think of me
And wish that you could hold me now, (hold me now)
And would you die for me
Would you run with me
All the way
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one
to take my breath away...
Would you be there to save my soul tonight?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be there
To kiss my pain away
would u be there...
Would you be there to love to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one
to take my breath away...
Would you be there to save my soul tonight?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be there
to kiss my pain away
would u be there... for me.
To Hear the Song:-
Would You Be There - Redwan Ali
Sunday, January 25, 2009
CNY Eve 2008
Again this year, we won't be having our CNY Eve dinner with my grandma & my dad's side of the family. Thus, mom decided to cook and invited my sister's family and her in-laws over. I decided to prepare "Loh Sang" since I had not got any chance to eat it with anyone so I thought it will be a change and fun to have it for our Eve dinner. But turns out no one was too enthusiatic about it and since I was holding the camera to video it, I couldn't do it either. Glad at the end of the meal, it's all wiped out as I was a little worried, it might not.
Friday, January 23, 2009
Happy OX 2009
I received many emails and greetings from friends and colleagues. This came in very meaningful and cute despite that I do not know how to read them... But, I would like to share them... And anyone can translate for me, that will be GREAT! :D
"As We MooOooVe FrOm 2008 tO 2009.. MaY You HavE No WorriEs AnD MoRe FuN.. DuN Let StReSS TriP You OvEr AnD SpEnD MoRe TiMe WitH FaMiLy AnD FriEnDs.. HaVe A GreaT NeW YeaR..!!"
Thursday, January 01, 2009
With Strangers 4 New Year Eve
I don't recall how I celebrate my previous year(s) of New Year Eve. Not being very much prefer to be at a crowded and congested surrounding, I probably just stay at home and watch the fireworks from my window.
This year I had an invitation and I counted down New Year in a way I never had before which was BBQ by the pool-side of a condominium at Ara Damansara (right opposite "Niu Zie Xui") and with a whole big group of strangers and amazingly they are a group of dancers as well!! I can only recalled some of the names that they introduced themselves when I arrived... Let's see, it's like starting the first day at a new work-place. Hhhmm... they are Leong, Thera, Jacqueline, Alexandra, Stella, Boon Tze, Justin & wife; Joey, Luen Kit... I'm bad at remembering names that are not English so yea... maybe, I might even get the names wrongly remembered too.
Once I arrived, I felt that I had over-dressed myself seeing that all of them were in their jeans or shorts & slippers; just like at the beach-side. Despite that I'm comfortable enough in my clothes but I was afraid I'll slipped on my shoes since the area is kinda wet at the same time so I had to really tip toes slowly from one place to another.
Just about 5 minutes, we were there, I recalled very well Scott said, "Go mingle around" and so I left the table full of food to the other side where the BBQ-pit corner is. I was feeling a little out of place because people are not that friendly at this "corner" so I just got myself a stick of chicky-wing and I started BBQ-ing it. Leong was there and he asked me a few questions and then, that's about it... the rest were chit-chatting among themselves and making silly & dirty jokes. I chuckled a few times when I find them funny. Since, I had to wait for my chicky-wing to cook, I had nothing better to do but to listen and be amused till Scott came to take over the chicky-wing when it's almost cooked. So, I returned to the food-corner.
This year I had an invitation and I counted down New Year in a way I never had before which was BBQ by the pool-side of a condominium at Ara Damansara (right opposite "Niu Zie Xui") and with a whole big group of strangers and amazingly they are a group of dancers as well!! I can only recalled some of the names that they introduced themselves when I arrived... Let's see, it's like starting the first day at a new work-place. Hhhmm... they are Leong, Thera, Jacqueline, Alexandra, Stella, Boon Tze, Justin & wife; Joey, Luen Kit... I'm bad at remembering names that are not English so yea... maybe, I might even get the names wrongly remembered too.
Once I arrived, I felt that I had over-dressed myself seeing that all of them were in their jeans or shorts & slippers; just like at the beach-side. Despite that I'm comfortable enough in my clothes but I was afraid I'll slipped on my shoes since the area is kinda wet at the same time so I had to really tip toes slowly from one place to another.
Just about 5 minutes, we were there, I recalled very well Scott said, "Go mingle around" and so I left the table full of food to the other side where the BBQ-pit corner is. I was feeling a little out of place because people are not that friendly at this "corner" so I just got myself a stick of chicky-wing and I started BBQ-ing it. Leong was there and he asked me a few questions and then, that's about it... the rest were chit-chatting among themselves and making silly & dirty jokes. I chuckled a few times when I find them funny. Since, I had to wait for my chicky-wing to cook, I had nothing better to do but to listen and be amused till Scott came to take over the chicky-wing when it's almost cooked. So, I returned to the food-corner.
= The BBQ-Corner=
= The Food-Corner =
At the food corner, Jacqueline was really nice. She kept feeding me and asking me to, "eat eat eat". *Chuckled* being a mother is always like that. All the fried food were cooked by her maid and some other friends. It's delicious and yummie. After a while, I went back to the BBQ corner and got Scott to cook lots of sausages for me. I'm still kinda hungry... or probably I just love sausages :P
Somehow, looking at most of the guys are already top-less and soaking wet, Scott decided he wanted to have a change of clothes so that he can also have some fun. By then Alexandra & Stella were also half-dredged and I'm really tempted too. So, we returned to my car and Scott changed but I just change my heels to slippers instead. On our way to my car, I chatted with Scott about his dancers friends and one remarked left me astound, "I feel alienated around them." and when I asked him, "even today when I'm around?" and his replied was, "Yeah.." and I goes speechless the rest of the way.
Upon returning, I just hang around the BBQ corner and waiting for the sweet potatoes & sweet corn to cook while watching Alexandra & Justin waltzing away. There are 3-huge water-guns around and I really cannot resist not having a try on it and since I was kinda getting a little bored just sitting without even talking... I took the water-gun that was left on the stool and started learning to play with it.
Of course, I shot in front and I think Justin or Boon Tze got wet and they came back at me for revenge. So yea... I got a little dredged but I was feeling good. At that point of time, I wished I had brought my swim wear and I could even swim in the big huge pool that is really tempting me since I first arrived!!
Next, the guys wanted to get Scott wet too so the strategy was to carry him and "swing" and throw him right into the wide cold pool! *SPLASH* In he go... everyone had a good laugh. But the pictures doesn't come out that well unfortunately.
The whole night, the songs were on for all of them to dance & waltz around and it's quite funny to actually see them doing it at the semi-wet floor. I felt that they were still graceful and gentle despite that they are not in their best attires.
Since everyone is satisfied with the food, the wine was being poured from one glass to another but I forgotten who is the guy's name that pour it. It's also almost counting-down time and we stood in a circle by the pool and the same guy that pour the wine solemnly saying his honorable speech. I'm not sure if he is always serious like this speech that he gave but I was controlling very hard not to laugh because everyone around were so quiet and serious as well. But after the speech, he is back to being playful like before.
Few minutes after our toast and wishes to each other, I walked away to the other side of the building trying to catch the first glimpse of fireworks at the open-sky in front of me. YES! It finally came after I stood there for a minute or two. Probably that "area" timing was a bit late... so, I called out to Scott to see it and everyone joined us too. It lasted very long and somehow, we all got a little bored as it being too-long and we just couldn't wait for it to be over instead.
After that, they started to clean up the area and some of the guys played card-games. In order to finish the leftover food, they came up with the idea that for those who lost the card-games, they had to finish certain amount of the food. At last and amazingly, it works... most of the leftover were gone in minutes.
Last night was for a change... I'm not sure if others will remember it the way I do but I guessed, I choose to blog (since we are also blessed with blogging convenience these days) about it to keep me reminded of last night. Special thanks for the one who took the pictures and thanks for your company.
Somehow, looking at most of the guys are already top-less and soaking wet, Scott decided he wanted to have a change of clothes so that he can also have some fun. By then Alexandra & Stella were also half-dredged and I'm really tempted too. So, we returned to my car and Scott changed but I just change my heels to slippers instead. On our way to my car, I chatted with Scott about his dancers friends and one remarked left me astound, "I feel alienated around them." and when I asked him, "even today when I'm around?" and his replied was, "Yeah.." and I goes speechless the rest of the way.
Upon returning, I just hang around the BBQ corner and waiting for the sweet potatoes & sweet corn to cook while watching Alexandra & Justin waltzing away. There are 3-huge water-guns around and I really cannot resist not having a try on it and since I was kinda getting a little bored just sitting without even talking... I took the water-gun that was left on the stool and started learning to play with it.
Of course, I shot in front and I think Justin or Boon Tze got wet and they came back at me for revenge. So yea... I got a little dredged but I was feeling good. At that point of time, I wished I had brought my swim wear and I could even swim in the big huge pool that is really tempting me since I first arrived!!
Next, the guys wanted to get Scott wet too so the strategy was to carry him and "swing" and throw him right into the wide cold pool! *SPLASH* In he go... everyone had a good laugh. But the pictures doesn't come out that well unfortunately.
The whole night, the songs were on for all of them to dance & waltz around and it's quite funny to actually see them doing it at the semi-wet floor. I felt that they were still graceful and gentle despite that they are not in their best attires.
Since everyone is satisfied with the food, the wine was being poured from one glass to another but I forgotten who is the guy's name that pour it. It's also almost counting-down time and we stood in a circle by the pool and the same guy that pour the wine solemnly saying his honorable speech. I'm not sure if he is always serious like this speech that he gave but I was controlling very hard not to laugh because everyone around were so quiet and serious as well. But after the speech, he is back to being playful like before.
Few minutes after our toast and wishes to each other, I walked away to the other side of the building trying to catch the first glimpse of fireworks at the open-sky in front of me. YES! It finally came after I stood there for a minute or two. Probably that "area" timing was a bit late... so, I called out to Scott to see it and everyone joined us too. It lasted very long and somehow, we all got a little bored as it being too-long and we just couldn't wait for it to be over instead.
After that, they started to clean up the area and some of the guys played card-games. In order to finish the leftover food, they came up with the idea that for those who lost the card-games, they had to finish certain amount of the food. At last and amazingly, it works... most of the leftover were gone in minutes.
Last night was for a change... I'm not sure if others will remember it the way I do but I guessed, I choose to blog (since we are also blessed with blogging convenience these days) about it to keep me reminded of last night. Special thanks for the one who took the pictures and thanks for your company.
