Tis 'd raining season

Tis the raining season since about a week ago and so I decided that it's time to take out the leather boots and wear them with my newly purchased "army-green" suit. Actually, when I first fell in love with it in Cultivation, Elle; it was because I love the color and the design resembles a trench-coat without long sleeves. Rugged at the shoulder and since I never did look good in all the other actual trench-coat that I tried before, this one piece came as a love-at-first-sight.

Today, knowing that RF will be traveling for the next few days, I thought I wanted to look a little "different" despite that I have not a slight idea what will be the interpretation from everyone since Singaporean women do dressed-up daily for work. I practically feel that there is no point of me even trying to look good unless I do feel like doing that myself. Guessed it becomes just my interest that I wanted to look good for RF. Not like I ever will 'blown him off' with my beauty or what I wear but I still never gave up on trying to catch his attention. I would think that this could be some thing to look forward to do even though I do not reap any result at the end of it.

With me dressed in a Kebarung after Raya got his attention with lots of teasing that "is it that there is no laundry done that's why you dresses this way?" And same "no-laundry" tease came along with me dressed in a Punjabi suit after Deepavali but added compliment from him, "it's nice". I knew he is a superb-high-radar observer but considering that he can really describe a lot about strangers, it is very good that he never once hurt my feelings by negatively mentioned anything about my dressing.

Anyway, I find him a little strange since yesterday because he wanted me to remind him about the musical on Friday night and today, he softly whispered to me to help him water his flower-plants. 

Around 12ish, he requested me to tag along to Pantry and the first thing he said was, "nice boots, is it Zara?" And I replied, "nope" and I just wasn't ready to talk about boots when in my mind I thought he called me for work-related issues. And then he added, "nice outfit" and again bluntly I replied, "thanks". Gosh... And we departed and left the Pantry without talking about work and he softly remarked, "last night, the meeting was good" and I replied, "good". WoW! I just can't understand him...

Annie send me a message via MSN, "Any potential to end up with ur tis young boss..hehe.." and I laughed so much when I read the message later but content myself from replying...

Teary Friday

Last night, I'm off to bed after 11.30pm after failing to watch the Korean drama that I wanted to. As a result of this, I can't really wake up at 6.30am today. I didn't wait for the bus too long but I think I didn't get the 100% free MRT ride that I usually do. I was still half-asleep and not noticing the amount on my EzLink.

When I reached the office, the tea-lady actually raised her voice from the other end of the floor to me and commented that the box of cake that I left in the fridge has been days. I replied that it's not mine but it's "everyones" and I'm not sure if she heard me but when the cleaner is in the pantry, she grumbled again about the things in the fridge to the cleaner. Urrgghhh... what an awful Friday morning to be greeted this way in the office. What a bitch?!

 

Since SH will be away for his vacation for 2 weeks, the usual Monday meeting was brought forward to today. The usual and again for the 2nd time in 2 weeks, the concern of RF being 'burnt-out' was brought and my hormones-instability has put me into a very 'sensitive' situation that I was really pissed when SH mentioned that he was not happy that I give myself a 'quarantine' period which I do not want to "handle sales". Come on, this was not even discussed as my job description during my interview with Chris and then, no one even bother to update me about the title in the company website on 17th June.

 

 

Where is the fairness? When SH pushed for an answer that I think if I do open my mouth, I think I might get all out before I could control myself. Writing into a piece of paper and showed to RF as a way for me to "express my anger" has lead to a greater anger for SH and he in returned shouted at me and demanded to see the paper and claimed this being disrespectful for his culture. He left the room angrily despite GC & RF called after him. Seconds after, I followed with anger too. When I reached my desk, I was actually shaking all over without a reason I can understand while I called up JZ to enquire about freight situation just to calm myself down. Minutes later, RF & GC came back and I was too "emotional" to be around, I left for the 'cubicle-comfort' and cried my heart out for 30minutes while texting RF and JZ. I knew that RF cannot help me and I do not wish to tell him how I feel... or see me in tears...

 

GC and RF kept trying to attempt to talk to me especially GC who I couldn't be bothered to even listen to whatever she got to say despite my attendance was there in the meeting-room but my soul was not... She probably think that she is helpful and trying to 'work out' something but, she simply can't get thru to me...

 

Told RF that I wanted to have my lunch alone after he offered for the 3rd or maybe 4th time with GC informing me that SH would like to speak to me after lunch. With this situation, I recalled Port Moresby when MH yelled at me and even when the person who first gave you an opportunity, they are the one that created / gave the hell of a time (without them knowing it) and is the one that also disappointed you the most. While having my McD-Happy-Meal, I told myself, I will overcome this and give a period of 3months.

 

After lunch, SH apologized with the attendance of RF in the room. Silence from RF but for myself, it was simply courtesy and SH being 59years old this year with greying hair more than my own Dad, he probably need that extra 'respect' after 2 broken-marriages. How sincere is his apology, I couldn't care less but I will not want him to regret what he said to me.

 

Scribbles...

*18th June 2014* Left house about 7.30am despite that initially plan to leave 7.15am. As usual, Aunty Margie chit-chats a lot to me and I finally couldn't resist to inform her about the ants that are crawling around in the room on the bed. Munching an apple while walking to the Queensway MRT station was alright and it took me about 15minutes with normal speed. Reaches office at close to 8.20am and by the time I get to my desktop, it's 8.30am. The best thing about this company, there is no need the punch-card system. I arranged my shoes in the cabinet next to me and I took my sweet time to make my first coffee here from the expresso machine while chit-chatting with Gina about accommodation.

Departed for DBS at Raffles City Shopping Centre with Stein on the a cab since he is going to trade his smartphone. Waited more than 15mins on the queue but the result was disappointing. Without a physical EP card, I need to deposit S$5,000 to open a new saving account! And so, I need to walk back to Millenia Tower again from yet another DBS trip. But, I took the slow walk from Basements to underpass and it just took me about 15minutes which just a slight sunshine after leaving Suntec City Tower 5.

Stein gave me assignments that I'm totally not ready for as I did not expect the trading role will kick in first.

Met up Tiffany from a Shipping Agent LBH Group. She is such a lovely lady. *20th June 2014*  Koufu is actually the nearest food-court near my office block at Millenia Walk. They will soon close for renovation till further notice. And it's a pity that it's going to take place because it's serving the cheapest in cost and the bigger size in volume compare to all the other neighbouring food-courts. My favourite "mee-pork" at SGD$3.80

Singapore, the journey begins...

A drive down south across the border was a dream come thru with BKA6600 and assistance of map-applications. Worth a thousand indescribable words and an experience, money can't buy...

Singapore, the journey begins...

I'm Undressed if I'm not Smiling..

Two days ago, my dad collected the Pos-Laju parcel from the post office down-town Klang due to the guy came on 1st May 2014 (super-efficient to be working on a Labour Day holiday).

 

It was a big surprise that KT gifted me vouchers from my favourite coffee joint, San Francisco Coffee!! - "Oh-so-very love it!!" He asked me to get myself a piece of cake and company it with a cup of coffee. But, because I want to commemorate this gift, I'm going to call them up to enquire where I can I exchange the voucher for a merchandize; "the heat-changing mug". I hope it will be for sale (or rather to exchange).

 

Capital FM quoted a line that goes some thing like this, "One is undressed if there is no Smile" while I was driving on Kesas Highway this morning...

 

Since, JT decided to spend time away for the long weekends, our luncheon gathering for the girls was postponed to today. We supposed to have it at Jibby & Co, Empire Subang but it was full and they did not accept pre-book reservation, we adjourned to Chili's instead.

 

I ordered myself a light and healthy chicken taco and to my surprise, it's a rather huge serving. And I can't help smiling at the self-discovered "mickey-mouse" arrangement too. *Grinz*

 

While eating and chatting, JT informed me that Chili's will give free dessert for the birthday-person so, I was being a big mouth to pass on the message to PY and in return, I got a "selamba" tone reply back from her...Geezz, I do feel a little "let-down" with that no-excitement-reply since not everything comes for free everyday.

 

After the tables are clear and I'm still munching the free-flow-nanchos while watching the parents running after their kids and making very short conversations with YH... I do feel that this luncheon was a little boring... After a long while, the parents & kids came back to the tables and started fishing out $$ to pay, without much notice as I was talking to Isabel then, "Happy Birthday to you...." sang by a few waiter and waitress and along came the 'free dessert' with a lighted-candle. I looked up at JT who has a very surprised face expression and then, Isabel started crying as it was rather too loud and must have frighten her.

 

Nobody actually requested me to make a wish before I blow my candle and nobody offer to take photos with me... So, I blew it and just enjoy the free dessert myself with YH taking some shots of me.

 

Happy 35th Birthday to me!

I've 28 birthday wishes in my Facebook, 11 birthday wishes via WhatsApp and 4 birthday wishes via WeChat. That's how many friends I have with the help of social-platforms... *chuckled*

 

After dinner, both Bro and Dad said they forgotten that it's my birthday today. I replied, "It's no big deal, it's just another Sunday." Unfortunately, Mom raised this comment, "My daughter never wishes me on my birthday so I also never wish her on her birthday." This comment lingers thru my mind until I fall asleep...

 

# Quotes-that-will-make-you-feel-beautiful-no-matter-how-you-look

 

 

 

 

 

Dear No One...

Today, I feel that this lyric is just the right thinking of mine too...

I like being independent
Not so much of an investment
No one to tell me what to do
I like being by myself
Don’t gotta entertain anybody else
No one to answer to

But sometimes, I just want somebody to hold
Someone to give me their jacket when its cold
Got that young love even when we’re old
Yeah sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand
Pick me up, pull me close, be my man
I will love you till the end

So if you’re out there I swear to be good to you
But I’m done lookin’, for my future someone
Cause when the time is right
You’ll be here, but for now
Dear no one, this is your love song

I don’t really like big crowds
I tend to shut people out
I like my space, yeah
But I’d love to have a soul mate
God will give him to me someday
& I know it’ll be worth the wait

So if you’re out there I swear to be good to you
But I’m done lookin’, for my future someone
Cause when the time is right
You’ll be here, but for now
Dear no one, this is your love song

But sometimes, I just want somebody to hold
Someone to give me their jacket when its cold
Got that young love even when we’re old
Yeah sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand
Pick me up, pull me close, be my man
I will love you till the end

So if you’re out there I swear to be good to you
But I’m done lookin’, for my future someone
Cause when the time is right
You’ll be here, but for now
Dear no one, this is your love song

Song Written by Tori Kelly

Korean Drama : Dong Yi

Yay! I'm done watching this 60 episodes of korean drama...
The last few episodes were a struggle after www.dramacrazy.net shut down...

Dong Yi (Hangul: 동이; Hanja: 同伊) is a 2010 South Korean historical television drama series, starring Han Hyo-joo, Ji Jin-hee, Lee So-yeon and Bae Su-bin.

Synopsis

Set during the reign of King Sukjong in the Joseon dynasty, the series is based on the historical character Consort Suk. The story focuses on Dong Yi, a slave maid working in the Bureau of Music. Her warm personality, sincerity and exceptionally keen mind help her in solving difficult court intrigues and allow her to rise to become first a Lady of the Court and then as a concubine, despite being Lowborn. While solving a case, she meets the King who introduces himself as a Court Judge. He enjoys her treatment of him as a real court judge and falls in love with her. She also gains the favor of Queen Inhyeon and meets Jang Heebin, another concubine who is first an ally but later a bitter enemy. In her quest to survive in court and bring justice to the Lowborn she makes many allies such as Cha Chun Soo (who she considers an older brother though not blood-related), Seo Yong Gi (Police Chief), and Court Ladies Jung and Bong. Dong Yi becomes a concubine with the rank of Sook-bin, bears a son who, under her tutelage, later becomes the 21st king of Joseon, Yeongjo, the father of Crown Prince Sado (whom Yeongjo killed by placing him in a wooden coffin-like rice box to starve as punishment) and grandfather of Yi San.

Cancel Trip to Beijing, Shanghai & Hangzhou

China has always been my last priority or not-to-go country for holiday tour...
Simply being the reason that I speaks Mandarin but are characterly-blind with it... and deep inside me, I've never really fancy the Eastern culture as much... While I'm doing my research in preparation for my work-trip to Beijing and extension for leisure to visit the historical sites, Dad told me I'll turn around with my thinking once I return from it... So, will just wait and see...

Annoucement today by the Group Executive Director, "Due to H7N9, Beijing conference trip is cancel". With mixed feelings... Yeah... Lucky, I've only booked the air ticket from KL to Beijing and nothing else. But, all the reading research effort wasted...

Messages... from FH

I'm trying out an old smartphone Samsung GT-I8150 and I couldn't had the heart to delete all my smses from FH that I had stored in my Samsung SGH-X520 phone for all these years... Thus, I'm keeping it here... Reading them again make my heart aches... and it breaks my heart even more now that I had to delete them from my phone... the memories...

13/03/2008 09:31PM - Are u free can I pass u the books somewhere around ur place at 10?
13/03/2008 09:37PM - Im finished. Well at least one of them. Thought u might miss them. Just let me knoe when then.
15/03/2008 10:49PM - I was thinkin of comin to see u after work r u up for it? Around 1am.
15/03/2008 11:09PM - Im in a good mood... Just wanted to clear things.
15/03/2008 11:35PM - Nah.. U don't hav to wait for me. This thing can wait. Take care.
17/03/2008 12:08PM - Well i like to give back what i borrow. Its just comon curtasy. My shift is at 3pm till tuesday. Im of wed n thur.
17/03/2008 12:17PM - Well if u say so. But i got a feelin ur still angry at me. I said im sorry.
21/03/2008 03:58PM - Hi babydoll.. Im at the mamak with a friend. U drop me an email? Wonderin whats it all about. Hope its all good :) i'll call u a bit later in the evenin ok
23/03/2008 09:29AM - Or else what? But i am a good boy. I just like to b notty with u :p
24/03/2008 10:56PM - Ok baby. Thanks for dinner. Goodnite babydoll. Muah
25/03/2008 02:09PM - I miss u too. I'll call u b4 i take a nap. Later k. Im on training
05/04/2008 09:15AM - Thats ok baby. Just wanted to make sure u reach home.
10/04/2008 08:43PM - Hey baby. I just wanted to hear voice, incase i forget how it sounds like :) how was dinner? Did u had a lot? Hope u ate more vegi :) don't forget to do ur situps.
10/04/2008 10:24PM - I did try 2 call yesterday, tapi tak dapat ;) then i thought u must b in some jugle with no signal. U take care all rite.. And i do miss u :) goodnite
13/04/2008 08:08PM - Hey babydoll. How was ur weekend? Im sure its nice to b spendin it in sabah for a change. Nyways just wanted say hi. Hope u hav a great evening there :) take care.
13/04/2008 09:14PM - Home sick already :) hang in there. Just 3 more days rite? I star work at 11.30pm. About 2 hour from now :(
04/05/2008 12:10AM - Happy Birthday Baby. Don't forget to come n collect ur present from me tomoro :)
04/05/2008 12:50PM - Im at hilton pj witing for the pengantin to get ready. Mayb tonite after ur dinner i'll come and see u ok.
04/05/2008 07:23PM - Where are u having dinner at? What time do u think i should come n pick u up?
04/05/2008 07:36PM - Im havin dinner with my pal. Take ur time. Just let me know when :)
10/05/2008 08:33PM - If this how u treat the men in ur past. Then i dont want to be a part of it. This could b our last trip together. Lets make it a good one ok :)
10/05/2008 08:51PM - Look im sorry i said that. Upset doesn't even come close to what im feeling at this point in time. I'v been through alot with woman. N i dont intend to make the same mistake. At this time i dont really care whats gonna happen to us. But i am sorry if i was being selfish. Hope u get well soon.
11/05/2008 12:22AM - Take it easy. Dont make ur own conclusion just yet. Lets talk about it later ok. Im sorry i made u sad. Its just not a good day at the office n i kindda ally can only use 3.
15/05/2008 06:09AM - Goodmorning baby. I miss u too. Later ok. Im starting my work now. U drive safe to work ok.

Carry On

Gateun sigan soge utgo inneun neol bomyeon
Ije nae nunen neoman isseo
Machi unmyeongcheoreom muldeureogan haruneun
Imi cheonnyeoneul jinandeutae
Ojik neoreul neukkigo
Hayan pibue daha
Salmyeosi seumyeodeun ne sumgyeol
Maeil kkumeul kkunabwa
O! Jeongmal geojitmalcheoreom
Mareobsi dagaon ne moseup
Sum swineun geu sunganbuteo
Nae simjangi doebeorin neo
Hamkke kkumkkumyeo saranghallae
Sojunghan ne pumsogeseo harureul salgo sipeo
Saranghae nae unmyeong gateun neo
Carry on carry on carry on carry on
Gateun gonggansoge ppajyeodeulgo isseo nan
Ije nae mameun neoman neukkyeojakku gaseumsoge seoseongineun ne moseup
Soneul ppeodeumyeon daheul deut hae
Ojik neoreul neukkigo
Hayan pibue daha
Salmyeosi seumyeodeun ne sumgyeol
Maeil kkumeul kkunabwa
O! Jeongmal geojitmalcheoreom
Mareobsi dagaon ne moseup
Carry on carry on carry on carry on-wo-eoeo eo neoreul saranghae
Nae simjangi doebeorin neo
Hamkke kkumkkumyeo saranghallae
Sojunghan ne pumsogeseo harureul salgo sipeo
Saranghae nae unmyeong gateun neo
Saranghae- uuu- ye- wo- eoeoheo saranghae-

English Translation:
As we’re in the same time, I see you smile
Now only you are in my eyes
Just like fate, each day gets filled with you
It already feels like a thousand years has passed
I only feel you
Against my white skin
Your breath softly touches me
I dream every day
Truly, like a lie
You came to me without a word
The moment you started to breathe
You became my heart
I want to dream with you and love you
I want to live my days in your precious arms
I love you, you are my destiny
Carry On Carry On
Carry On Carry On
In the same space, I am falling for you
Now only you can feel my heart
You keep pacing through my heart
If I extend my hand, it seems like I can touch you
I only feel you
Against my white skin
Your breath softly touches me
I dream every day
Truly, like a lie
You came to me without a word
The moment you started to breathe
You became my heart
I want to dream with you and love you
I want to live my days in your precious arms
I love you, you are my destiny
Carry On Carry On
Carry On Carry On
I love you
You became my heart
I want to dream with you and love you
I want to live my days in your precious arms
I love you, you are my destiny
I love you, I love you

After I hear this song, I told FH we are growing apart... and he decided to say goodbye forever.