Tis 'd raining season

Tis the raining season since about a week ago and so I decided that it's time to take out the leather boots and wear them with my newly purchased "army-green" suit. Actually, when I first fell in love with it in Cultivation, Elle; it was because I love the color and the design resembles a trench-coat without long sleeves. Rugged at the shoulder and since I never did look good in all the other actual trench-coat that I tried before, this one piece came as a love-at-first-sight.

Today, knowing that RF will be traveling for the next few days, I thought I wanted to look a little "different" despite that I have not a slight idea what will be the interpretation from everyone since Singaporean women do dressed-up daily for work. I practically feel that there is no point of me even trying to look good unless I do feel like doing that myself. Guessed it becomes just my interest that I wanted to look good for RF. Not like I ever will 'blown him off' with my beauty or what I wear but I still never gave up on trying to catch his attention. I would think that this could be some thing to look forward to do even though I do not reap any result at the end of it.

With me dressed in a Kebarung after Raya got his attention with lots of teasing that "is it that there is no laundry done that's why you dresses this way?" And same "no-laundry" tease came along with me dressed in a Punjabi suit after Deepavali but added compliment from him, "it's nice". I knew he is a superb-high-radar observer but considering that he can really describe a lot about strangers, it is very good that he never once hurt my feelings by negatively mentioned anything about my dressing.

Anyway, I find him a little strange since yesterday because he wanted me to remind him about the musical on Friday night and today, he softly whispered to me to help him water his flower-plants. 

Around 12ish, he requested me to tag along to Pantry and the first thing he said was, "nice boots, is it Zara?" And I replied, "nope" and I just wasn't ready to talk about boots when in my mind I thought he called me for work-related issues. And then he added, "nice outfit" and again bluntly I replied, "thanks". Gosh... And we departed and left the Pantry without talking about work and he softly remarked, "last night, the meeting was good" and I replied, "good". WoW! I just can't understand him...

Annie send me a message via MSN, "Any potential to end up with ur tis young boss..hehe.." and I laughed so much when I read the message later but content myself from replying...

Teary Friday

Last night, I'm off to bed after 11.30pm after failing to watch the Korean drama that I wanted to. As a result of this, I can't really wake up at 6.30am today. I didn't wait for the bus too long but I think I didn't get the 100% free MRT ride that I usually do. I was still half-asleep and not noticing the amount on my EzLink.

When I reached the office, the tea-lady actually raised her voice from the other end of the floor to me and commented that the box of cake that I left in the fridge has been days. I replied that it's not mine but it's "everyones" and I'm not sure if she heard me but when the cleaner is in the pantry, she grumbled again about the things in the fridge to the cleaner. Urrgghhh... what an awful Friday morning to be greeted this way in the office. What a bitch?!

 

Since SH will be away for his vacation for 2 weeks, the usual Monday meeting was brought forward to today. The usual and again for the 2nd time in 2 weeks, the concern of RF being 'burnt-out' was brought and my hormones-instability has put me into a very 'sensitive' situation that I was really pissed when SH mentioned that he was not happy that I give myself a 'quarantine' period which I do not want to "handle sales". Come on, this was not even discussed as my job description during my interview with Chris and then, no one even bother to update me about the title in the company website on 17th June.

 

 

Where is the fairness? When SH pushed for an answer that I think if I do open my mouth, I think I might get all out before I could control myself. Writing into a piece of paper and showed to RF as a way for me to "express my anger" has lead to a greater anger for SH and he in returned shouted at me and demanded to see the paper and claimed this being disrespectful for his culture. He left the room angrily despite GC & RF called after him. Seconds after, I followed with anger too. When I reached my desk, I was actually shaking all over without a reason I can understand while I called up JZ to enquire about freight situation just to calm myself down. Minutes later, RF & GC came back and I was too "emotional" to be around, I left for the 'cubicle-comfort' and cried my heart out for 30minutes while texting RF and JZ. I knew that RF cannot help me and I do not wish to tell him how I feel... or see me in tears...

 

GC and RF kept trying to attempt to talk to me especially GC who I couldn't be bothered to even listen to whatever she got to say despite my attendance was there in the meeting-room but my soul was not... She probably think that she is helpful and trying to 'work out' something but, she simply can't get thru to me...

 

Told RF that I wanted to have my lunch alone after he offered for the 3rd or maybe 4th time with GC informing me that SH would like to speak to me after lunch. With this situation, I recalled Port Moresby when MH yelled at me and even when the person who first gave you an opportunity, they are the one that created / gave the hell of a time (without them knowing it) and is the one that also disappointed you the most. While having my McD-Happy-Meal, I told myself, I will overcome this and give a period of 3months.

 

After lunch, SH apologized with the attendance of RF in the room. Silence from RF but for myself, it was simply courtesy and SH being 59years old this year with greying hair more than my own Dad, he probably need that extra 'respect' after 2 broken-marriages. How sincere is his apology, I couldn't care less but I will not want him to regret what he said to me.

 

Scribbles...

*18th June 2014* Left house about 7.30am despite that initially plan to leave 7.15am. As usual, Aunty Margie chit-chats a lot to me and I finally couldn't resist to inform her about the ants that are crawling around in the room on the bed. Munching an apple while walking to the Queensway MRT station was alright and it took me about 15minutes with normal speed. Reaches office at close to 8.20am and by the time I get to my desktop, it's 8.30am. The best thing about this company, there is no need the punch-card system. I arranged my shoes in the cabinet next to me and I took my sweet time to make my first coffee here from the expresso machine while chit-chatting with Gina about accommodation.

Departed for DBS at Raffles City Shopping Centre with Stein on the a cab since he is going to trade his smartphone. Waited more than 15mins on the queue but the result was disappointing. Without a physical EP card, I need to deposit S$5,000 to open a new saving account! And so, I need to walk back to Millenia Tower again from yet another DBS trip. But, I took the slow walk from Basements to underpass and it just took me about 15minutes which just a slight sunshine after leaving Suntec City Tower 5.

Stein gave me assignments that I'm totally not ready for as I did not expect the trading role will kick in first.

Met up Tiffany from a Shipping Agent LBH Group. She is such a lovely lady. *20th June 2014*  Koufu is actually the nearest food-court near my office block at Millenia Walk. They will soon close for renovation till further notice. And it's a pity that it's going to take place because it's serving the cheapest in cost and the bigger size in volume compare to all the other neighbouring food-courts. My favourite "mee-pork" at SGD$3.80

Singapore, the journey begins...

A drive down south across the border was a dream come thru with BKA6600 and assistance of map-applications. Worth a thousand indescribable words and an experience, money can't buy...

Singapore, the journey begins...

I'm Undressed if I'm not Smiling..

Two days ago, my dad collected the Pos-Laju parcel from the post office down-town Klang due to the guy came on 1st May 2014 (super-efficient to be working on a Labour Day holiday).

 

It was a big surprise that KT gifted me vouchers from my favourite coffee joint, San Francisco Coffee!! - "Oh-so-very love it!!" He asked me to get myself a piece of cake and company it with a cup of coffee. But, because I want to commemorate this gift, I'm going to call them up to enquire where I can I exchange the voucher for a merchandize; "the heat-changing mug". I hope it will be for sale (or rather to exchange).

 

Capital FM quoted a line that goes some thing like this, "One is undressed if there is no Smile" while I was driving on Kesas Highway this morning...

 

Since, JT decided to spend time away for the long weekends, our luncheon gathering for the girls was postponed to today. We supposed to have it at Jibby & Co, Empire Subang but it was full and they did not accept pre-book reservation, we adjourned to Chili's instead.

 

I ordered myself a light and healthy chicken taco and to my surprise, it's a rather huge serving. And I can't help smiling at the self-discovered "mickey-mouse" arrangement too. *Grinz*

 

While eating and chatting, JT informed me that Chili's will give free dessert for the birthday-person so, I was being a big mouth to pass on the message to PY and in return, I got a "selamba" tone reply back from her...Geezz, I do feel a little "let-down" with that no-excitement-reply since not everything comes for free everyday.

 

After the tables are clear and I'm still munching the free-flow-nanchos while watching the parents running after their kids and making very short conversations with YH... I do feel that this luncheon was a little boring... After a long while, the parents & kids came back to the tables and started fishing out $$ to pay, without much notice as I was talking to Isabel then, "Happy Birthday to you...." sang by a few waiter and waitress and along came the 'free dessert' with a lighted-candle. I looked up at JT who has a very surprised face expression and then, Isabel started crying as it was rather too loud and must have frighten her.

 

Nobody actually requested me to make a wish before I blow my candle and nobody offer to take photos with me... So, I blew it and just enjoy the free dessert myself with YH taking some shots of me.

 

Happy 35th Birthday to me!

I've 28 birthday wishes in my Facebook, 11 birthday wishes via WhatsApp and 4 birthday wishes via WeChat. That's how many friends I have with the help of social-platforms... *chuckled*

 

After dinner, both Bro and Dad said they forgotten that it's my birthday today. I replied, "It's no big deal, it's just another Sunday." Unfortunately, Mom raised this comment, "My daughter never wishes me on my birthday so I also never wish her on her birthday." This comment lingers thru my mind until I fall asleep...

 

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Dear No One...

Today, I feel that this lyric is just the right thinking of mine too...

I like being independent
Not so much of an investment
No one to tell me what to do
I like being by myself
Don’t gotta entertain anybody else
No one to answer to

But sometimes, I just want somebody to hold
Someone to give me their jacket when its cold
Got that young love even when we’re old
Yeah sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand
Pick me up, pull me close, be my man
I will love you till the end

So if you’re out there I swear to be good to you
But I’m done lookin’, for my future someone
Cause when the time is right
You’ll be here, but for now
Dear no one, this is your love song

I don’t really like big crowds
I tend to shut people out
I like my space, yeah
But I’d love to have a soul mate
God will give him to me someday
& I know it’ll be worth the wait

So if you’re out there I swear to be good to you
But I’m done lookin’, for my future someone
Cause when the time is right
You’ll be here, but for now
Dear no one, this is your love song

But sometimes, I just want somebody to hold
Someone to give me their jacket when its cold
Got that young love even when we’re old
Yeah sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand
Pick me up, pull me close, be my man
I will love you till the end

So if you’re out there I swear to be good to you
But I’m done lookin’, for my future someone
Cause when the time is right
You’ll be here, but for now
Dear no one, this is your love song

Song Written by Tori Kelly